NOT QUITE THAT
Ali Grant; 2023; Canada; 47 min.

57-year-old self-identified butch lesbian Sarah has some tough decisions to make after she tests positive for the BRCA gene, a mutation that predisposes her to breast cancer. Deciding on a preventative double mastectomy, she embarks on a journey to explore her identity by looking back at her complicated relationship to Judaism, her family history, partnerships, friendships, and parenthood.

Talking with her long-term partner Tamara and their friends at a dinner party in their home, Sarah asks questions about how they feel about their breasts and their identities. It’s not always a simple answer and each one has a unique response. Sarah finds that she has to decide what’s right for her and discovers interesting new ways to look at her body. NOT QUITE THAT is a sensitive and intimate portrait of the choices we must make to live in the world as ourselves.

CONTENT WARNING: DISCUSSION OF SEXUAL VIOLENCE